Ultrasound Update

So... my doctor's assistant called on Friday and told me surgery needs to be as soon as possible and asked if I could keep Tuesday open because they were going to try to get me in that day. She is going to call on Monday and give me the details. Apparently she has to get clearance from the insurance for me to go to another hospital other than the one covered since part of the surgery is not performed where I usually go. During that whole conversation, everything she said just whizzed past me. My mind was on overdrive and I failed to ask important questions that might have put my mind at ease a little.

Meanwhile, my belly is severely bloated, from what I don't know. I knew during the ultrasound last week when the technician was shoving and ramming that wand around inside of me that there would be some lingering pain, but I never thought it would be this bad. She (technician) spent a lot of time on the right side, where most of my pain has been for the past 10 years. My right ovary is covered in cysts - some big some small - and is quite a bit larger than the other one. I have had a cyst before but this is different. I really didn't know what I was looking at for the rest of the ultrasound when she was measuring my uterus and looking for various different abnormalities. I tried to read her face, too, but she was only grimacing while she was pushing on my right ovary.

I am a worrier. It is a terrible fault, but I seem incapable of shedding this flaw. I have spent the past few evenings educating myself of the options and possibilities based off of my symptoms and results of the ultrasound. Not to self-diagnose, but to be educated and equipped to ask appropriate questions relating to my body, the specifics of what will be done to it, and why. The thought of going into it blindly is overwhelming, especially considering the urgency which is weighing heavily on my mind. Why so soon? So many questions. . .